Tuesday, September 30, 2008

A breath of fresh air...

My time with God lately has been SO refreshing. God has been reminding me, and revealing to me so many great things. At some point I really need to sit down and write in detail about them, but for now, I will give a glimpse of what I am learning and being reminded of.

A couple of weeks ago I read this great article from a Pastor in the Discipleship Journal. The Pastor spoke about coming to grips with his brokenness. He talked about "having it all together" and then everything crumbling around him, starting with himself. It made me think a lot about brokenness and how I need to embrace my brokenness rather than try to cover or patch up my brokenness. We all are broken, whether we like to admit it or not (that is me). It is in my brokenness that I can clearly see the strength of God. So, hear me say... "I am broken." I have hurts that sometimes are too much for me to bear. Some outside things like, missing my Father, and wanting healing for my mother. I am saddened by my own sin and the sin of the body of Christ. But I have a God who is Sovereign and bears this for me and brings me peace and comfort as He walks me through these things. Praise God for his goodness!

Often times, when I listen to other people's stories or testimonies, I find myself thinking...."man, what a dramatic testimony." This thought is due to the speaker telling of the terrible things God drew them out of (drugs, abuse, sexual immorality, etc) I compare that to my testimony of growing up in Church and not ever remembering a time in my life when I didn't know there was a God. God has reminded me this week that my testimony IS just as "dramatic" as a person who was set free from drugs and alcohol... God set me free from myself. He set me free from the tyranny of my sinful desires of self. I was, and still am, in just as much of a need of a Savior as the drug addict on the corner, or the girl who is abused.

This past Sunday, we had a GREAT sermon Dr. Stan Norman spoke on Philippians 3:8-16. He spoke about our lives and how we have so many "chairs" in them. We try to arrange them in different ways to try and deal with all of them, but it always ends in failure. Her focused on verses 12-13. "Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own., because Christ Jesus has made me his own. Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But ONE THING I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." That is what it is about - our continual, singular, passionate pursuit of knowing and experiencing our God!!!

Ok... so this is longer than I expected. More of a preview than a glimpse of my thought process as of late....

Pray with me and think with me on these things....Tell me what God teaches and reminds you of through these things.

1 comment:

osei may said...

you said you heard a sermon by Dr. Stan Norman. I'm a former student of his. Where is he now?