A breath of fresh air...

My time with God lately has been SO refreshing. God has been reminding me, and revealing to me so many great things. At some point I really need to sit down and write in detail about them, but for now, I will give a glimpse of what I am learning and being reminded of.

A couple of weeks ago I read this great article from a Pastor in the Discipleship Journal. The Pastor spoke about coming to grips with his brokenness. He talked about "having it all together" and then everything crumbling around him, starting with himself. It made me think a lot about brokenness and how I need to embrace my brokenness rather than try to cover or patch up my brokenness. We all are broken, whether we like to admit it or not (that is me). It is in my brokenness that I can clearly see the strength of God. So, hear me say... "I am broken." I have hurts that sometimes are too much for me to bear. Some outside things like, missing my Father, and wanting healing for my mother. I am saddened by my own sin and the sin of the body of Christ. But I have a God who is Sovereign and bears this for me and brings me peace and comfort as He walks me through these things. Praise God for his goodness!

Often times, when I listen to other people's stories or testimonies, I find myself thinking...."man, what a dramatic testimony." This thought is due to the speaker telling of the terrible things God drew them out of (drugs, abuse, sexual immorality, etc) I compare that to my testimony of growing up in Church and not ever remembering a time in my life when I didn't know there was a God. God has reminded me this week that my testimony IS just as "dramatic" as a person who was set free from drugs and alcohol... God set me free from myself. He set me free from the tyranny of my sinful desires of self. I was, and still am, in just as much of a need of a Savior as the drug addict on the corner, or the girl who is abused.

This past Sunday, we had a GREAT sermon Dr. Stan Norman spoke on Philippians 3:8-16. He spoke about our lives and how we have so many "chairs" in them. We try to arrange them in different ways to try and deal with all of them, but it always ends in failure. Her focused on verses 12-13. "Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own., because Christ Jesus has made me his own. Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But ONE THING I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." That is what it is about - our continual, singular, passionate pursuit of knowing and experiencing our God!!!

Ok... so this is longer than I expected. More of a preview than a glimpse of my thought process as of late....

Pray with me and think with me on these things....Tell me what God teaches and reminds you of through these things.

A little laughter...

Yesterday afternoon, Kara started this new laugh.

The tooth fairy lives here...

I never thought in a million years that I would have a 7 month old getting two teeth

,

and at the same time have a 11 year old losing them

,

and a 9 year old about to lose one.

I truly believe that if she, or he, were real, they would have to take up residence in our house for a while now. I just have to sit back and laugh. Only God, in His infinate wisdom would see fit to plan our family in this way. Much like the way my mother and father had theirs. My siblings are between 9 and 18 years older than I am.

I guess this is yet another one of those things that only you can understand mom!

Springfield suprise

This past weekend we surprised Brenna and Taylor with a little getaway to Springfield, Missouri. We had a great time. We went to dinner, took the girls ice skating, and then as an extra bonus, went to the Springfield Cardinal's baseball game that was just down the street from the ice rink. We did all that on Friday... Saturday, we hit the mall and a few other stores to catch the big Labor Day sales. It was really nice to get away, and even more fun to surprise the girls.

Earlier in the day on Friday while we were doing school, and it was raining, Brenna commented that they had not been ice skating in so long and that they would really like to go. I had to bite my tongue to keep from saying anything. I had packed their bag and hid it in our room without them even knowing, so they truly had no idea what was coming. Their faces lit up when their daddy came in and said,"Come on, lets go!"

Brenna and Taylor at the ice rink



The girls at the baseball game


Kara's new trick

God is AMAZING.

I don't know if any of you have been reading the blog that I have a link to on Baby Elijah Fowler. His daddy works for the Masters Craft in Oklahoma. Elijah was born in May and at 6 1/2 weeks old, was diagnosed with cancer. His family has trusted God, prayed without ceasing, and believed that God heals, and indeed he has. Elijah no longer has to do chemo treatments, and the tumor has shrunk 64%. This is great! They will continue to have to watch closely, but God has already done a miracle in healing Elijah to this point. Join with us as we Praise God with the Fowler family for the great and mighty works of our King!!!

Too cute to pass up.

Ok, this was just to adorable to leave unrecorded.

I love how she finally realizes she is being watched.

Six months and all smiles

Kara turned 6 months old this past week. I can't believe it. The time has flown so quickly. So much has happened since her birth. She is truly another blessing from God.



She already causes us to praise God in so many ways. She is happy, healthy, and thriving. We praise God in the times when things aren't so happy as well. When she has a fussy time (which I have to say is not very often) we are reminded to die to self, and all of us need Jesus, including Kara.



So, at six months she is crawling, pulling up on things to a standing position, eating baby food fruit and vegetables. (She loves to eat) We even let her try a real peach. She went to town on that.

"Things that make you go hmmmm..."

So the song title goes.... I am currently reading through 1 Corinthians and also doing a Precepts study on covenant. Both of which have caused my mind to spin with thoughts and questions this week. I commented to my husband about how God's word makes you think sometimes, and his response to me was " I hope it makes you think all the time." So true, dear husband... So true. And as I thought about that, it made me wonder and tremble. Sometimes as I "sit at the feet of the Lord" and study his word, do I really study to think and grow, or do I do it only out of a sense of duty. I fear that too often, and once in a lifetime is too often, I find myself in the latter situation. Don't get me wrong, the duty of studying God's word is not bad in itself, but when it is the only reason the opening of His word happens, I am sure we miss out on the blessings God has in store for us. So that has led me to pray " Lord, may I love your Word, not out of a sense of duty only, but as I study, may the "duty" be surpassed by an even greater desire to know and fear the Lord." That is just where I am this day.....


On a different note... we begin our homeschooling next week. We are all very excited about the opportunity, and anxious to see how it all works when the rubber hits the road. Pray for all of us as we begin this new chapter.

Our (quick) trip to Houston

We left here from West Plains on Sunday morning, arrived in Houston, Texas just before dark.

Monday, we let Kara get a good morning nap and then headed off for some shopping. We were able to find some cute clothes for the girls, but my main mission of finding a new swim suit in all the clearance sales was a huge bust. That evening, my mom, my dear friend Leslie, my siblings and a few cousins all joined us on the Kemah boardwalk for dinner and a some rides. We ate at Salt Grass and watched the big wooden roller coaster outside the window. Needless to say, after watching the wood shift for about 2 hours, we decided to skip that one. We all enjoyed cheesecake (thanks to Holly)for Brenna's birthday dessert and then headed off to the rides. The girls two favorites are the ferris wheel and the carousel, so that is what we did.

Tuesday, we went to the beach, just us girls, joined by then Hurricane Dolly. The beach in Galveston was not too bad, but you could see the storm off the gulf and it was picking up the waves pretty good. This was the first beach trip for our girls, and they liked it a lot, except for the wind.

Wednesday, we hit the road early to come home. It was a long drive. Everyone did really well, it is just a LONG drive. We had a great time with our family and friends!

Turning 11

Today, our oldest daughter, Brenna, turns 11 years old. I really can't believe that we have a child that is 11. God has blessed us with this beautiful little girl, (Little being the key word there) who has taught, and continues to teach us more of who God is through parenting. She is creative, energetic, emotional, loving, nurturing, and loves to serve. We are especially blessed because we have watched her on her journey with God by being justified and continually being sanctified, and some day, will be glorified with Him for all eternity. We love our Brenna. Today is a special day and we are treating it as such. We started out the day with chocolate chip pancakes! A day can't get much better than that according to Brenna. We will end this evening with a small birthday party for Brenna and a few of her friends. Tomorrow we will have our "family" birthday in Missouri with the Hirsch's and Reavis family. Then, on Sunday, we will head our way to Houston, Texas for a VERY quick trip to take our dogs to my sister, and we will celebrate there with my siblings and a trip to the beach. We will turn around and come home on Wednesday. I think I am tired just thinking about it all.... Happy Birthday, Brenna. We love you!